Be the guiding light, be the door out of the darkness.
Lift them up instead of tear them down.
Love blooms through acceptance and it can only flourish if you nurture it.
Stories by a broken ego, from a being that fell apart and tried to make something out of nothing.
And you're the miasma within my blood.
Every bad thought incarnate.
Every ounce of venom i have starts with you.
Your arrogance and your way with words.
How my mind was spun as if i was on drugs.
How I believed even for a second that you could be anything more.
But I allowed it.
So I can't really complain now can I?
I will spit you out.
I don't hate you,no.
I should care to do that.
I can't even recall the last time I thought of everything you've done to me and you.
But the alcohol is plenty in my veins, and my speech is weak.
Be well for I have left you out.
I'm happy now even though I'm complaining from time to time.
This too shall pass and your memory shall fall to limbo.
Fight for a place.
Fight for a place in my life don't demand it.
I don't mean to scare you for you know that I would let you in.
But I grew tired of waiting, of hoping.
It doesn't work that way and I know it, somehow i still cling onto hope.
I'm summer and you're winter.
You're sober and I can't feel my limbs.
You are safe asleep and I party until I pass out.
So why damn it why do I still see you when I close my eyes.
Why do I hope that someway somehow we'll meet again?
What a sick and twisted game.
-thoughts of a past life.
And I live amongst the memories.
How I felt more in place than ever before.
How it all ended, or has it?
Just a weird gray zone.
Impossibilities that I want to conquer.
On one hand my cigarettes on the other a half empty glass of gin to fuel the monster I try to suppress.
The side of me that wants to say fuck it all and surrender to nothingness.
It will not win.
Not ever.
After all at the end of the day all I have is me and me alone.
I'd rather be kind and patient for this world has known enough hate already.
The unbreakables are the broken ones.
The ones who are not afraid to face their pieces whilst helping others collect theirs.
Pick a side.