Old one.

And suddenly all my broken pieces fell into place, where there was fear now there was joy, all the clouds that were once around me were going away. 

And I could do nothing but stare at the sheer beauty of this new beginning.

Shiver

I ended up walking in the dead of night. This game can't go on much longer. My senses were dulled; the cold was not so piercing anymore and my heart had quited down. My thoughts are a mess, I no longer know why I stay. I feel tired yet I keep walking in the dark. I ask questions in the hopes that light might be shed so I might find my way. My body is bruised my spirtit broken. I can hear my heart shatter day after day. I'm trying to find love where it once was, but all I see is my castles burned to the ground. The warning signs were always there , "this is obssesive" "this is not gonna work" "love doesn't feel like that". I ignored each and everyone of them in hopes that I would be right in the end. Now I know, this pain is familiar. This feeling of emptiness, the void and the tears that won't stop coming. My eyes burn and there is no other choice but to accept that if I don't walk away everything will get worse. And yet I can't bring myself to take this step, to take the plunge that will set me free.
I've talked so much that I'm losing my mind. I'm tired of repeating myself, of asking for some respect. "Do  unto others as you would have them do unto you" that's the phrase I live by. I never want someone to feel the way I've felt in the past. My purpose is not to destroy but to love and bring happiness. But my soul has almost run dry.
I'm tired.