And the feeling still lingers....
The void gnawing in the back of my head.
My heart flutters when i think too much and i tend to do that a lot.
I feel small when doubt gets the best of me. I hate it because I'm trying so hard to escape this cell I've created for myself.
I want to place the blame on others to scream that it's not my fault, but it is. I allowed to be treat as such and now I'm paying the price.... The price of years of manipulation and mental suffering, of allowing people to trample over me.
I'm almost 26 and I've never felt so weak. I promised myself that I wouldn't fall in love again I wouldn't allow anyone to gain my affection.
Yet here I am.
Trying to battle my demons while trying to put up a straight face.
I'm afraid of what will come if it ends.
I'm terrified for I know it will break me more than anything before.
For even in my caution I'm a blind fool.
The void gnawing in the back of my head.
My heart flutters when i think too much and i tend to do that a lot.
I feel small when doubt gets the best of me. I hate it because I'm trying so hard to escape this cell I've created for myself.
I want to place the blame on others to scream that it's not my fault, but it is. I allowed to be treat as such and now I'm paying the price.... The price of years of manipulation and mental suffering, of allowing people to trample over me.
I'm almost 26 and I've never felt so weak. I promised myself that I wouldn't fall in love again I wouldn't allow anyone to gain my affection.
Yet here I am.
Trying to battle my demons while trying to put up a straight face.
I'm afraid of what will come if it ends.
I'm terrified for I know it will break me more than anything before.
For even in my caution I'm a blind fool.